something missing

it went well. it went better than expected B.A.F one was a success. although it started out on a wrong hitch apparently the venue we were holding it was family owned and some of the family members weren't happy with it and so we had a somewhat confrontation. funny really, women older than my mother could stand out and speak rudely to me despite the fact that it wasn't even my decision to hold the event there. where is the love or respect even...sad.

paukwa pakawa people showed up in good numbers and my artists were able to make up for their money. it went well and i couldn't be happier. life is a journey and you learn as you go. although i cannot quite quantify the lessons i am learning from all the happenings i am experiencing and being part of i know i am learning quite alot.

to be able to rise up and say i was wrong is a good lesson and one that i am quite thankful for. there was nothing that taught me this better than B.A.F. to be able to stand up and take responsibility for something you have no control over.

business aside and to more personal issues...the saying "out of sight out of mind" couldn't be truer (if that's even a word). after all is said and done i find myself quite lonely and alone. i find myself angry and frustrated that i can do nothing about a lost friend that i was forced to think of today...more than friend actually. and even though i  feel this, i must be reminded that logic must take center stage before all.

and in this case logic states that i do not go back to this person in any stature. logic and emotion are hard to separate and that i am forced to do. i choose to follow logic. sometimes, when people choose to be what they are...nothing much one can do about it but hope you get over it.

i am looking forward to tomorrow's successes and  achievements, to the fun i am going to have, to the challenges i am going to face, people i am going to meet, mistakes i am going to make, lessons i am going to learn, music i am going to love, forgivenesses that i must make and the moving on that i must do.

May God bless the work of my mind and my body.